Sunday, November 28, 2010

I see him.

He's there. My niece can see him, too.

I won't let him take her, he won't get me.

I won't be a victim.

I'll find a way to help


I need to stop reading them. Urgh.

I'm starting to feel sick.. I need to draw. I was supposed to draw earlier, but with this paranoia stuff I'm been distracted.

I'll post of my pictures here. And I'm most certainly not drawing any Operator symbols.

Okay, maybe a few.

Maybe a whole page.

I kinda like them. My symbol is better, though! So I'll maybe I'll draw that instead.

But I have this urge to draw Slendy even though I've never seen him. To make those drawings that victims always have. It'd be neat.

I mean, if I don't draw them it means I'm scared, right? And if I'm scared it means he'd have more power over me, if he existed, which he doesn't. Even though my mind really believe I'm being followed by him. But I'm not, because he doesn't exist, I'm just schizo and I've been reading too many slenderblogs and imagination is running away with me.

I'll just draw my symbol.. then one that's cut on my kistone. If I can even find my sketchbook.

EDIT: I see letters behind letters, they are light blue against the white letters in front of them. I can't read them, but it's unnerving. My computer must be wonky, my book reads perfectly fine.

Also, I have way too much yang energy. Need to release it and maybe find a yin person to balance me out. Kistone must be amplifying everything.


I've decided to name my phantoms.

The Girl With Violet Eyes I'll name Blossom;
The Girl With Steel Eyes I'll name Cobalt;
The Girl with Wolf Eyes I'll name Mere.

Feeling Safe.

Last night was horrible. Matthew stayed on with me the whole time, despite his phone being near dead and his charger broken. There were a few very scary moments, but I'm okay. I got out of the house and to a party with my sister and I was safe. I slept with every light I had in my room on. I left the window open, though. If there is someone following me, I want to know for sure. I kept my kistone by the window, so I think that kept me safe. I keep it in a little baggie in my pocket. It still burns me a little, but it's better than what might happen if I don't have it with me.

I don't know what's going on, but I'll do my best. I've just been really stressed.

I have school tomorrow. I'd best finish up my books today.

Saturday, November 27, 2010


in the hallway

in the lake

he is there

i heard footsteps and im alone

he sees me

i don't want to die



Maybe I'm dealing with something different, or maybe I'm just paranoid

It's probably nothing, right?

It's not like he could walk on water, and that's what I saw. I'm just hallucinating again.

This stuff is doublehard when you also hallucinate. 

Yeah, there's no Slender Man. It's just a thing my brother's into.

I'll keep this updated.

My dreamlife has been pretty weird lately. Maybe some psychic disturbance is going on. 


  Hello. I've created this blog for an express purpose: To discuss a certain slender, well-dressed entity that has me quite paranoid. I've never seen him; my brother told me about him, and I watched the videos, and the reason I'm scared is because I remember something very similar from my childhood, a faceless thing that would get me if I didn't turn my mirror around and keep my door closed and my window shuttered and if I didn't hide under the blankets.

   I've been calling him Scarecrow for all these years, and I've blamed him for my hallucinations. Wyvern hunted him. I don't know how, but all I know is that Wyvern is gone and I haven't seen Scarecrow for a long time. But I suppose I'll start using the name you all have for him: Slender Man.

   I have a new kistone, which I'm hoping will protect me, because I think he as returned. I haven't seen him. It's just.. a feeling.

   I'm hoping the Girl With Violet Eyes and the Girl With Steel Eyes will able to help me out. They are better at this sort of thing, I think, and Wyvern isn't around to protect me anymore.

  I'll be contacting others who've met with Slender Man/Scarecrow. I know he is hurting a lot of people. I don't know what I can do, but I'll find out.

  Averyel, out.